The Garden of Wisdom.
I remember when all I had was a large dirt patch : brown, earthy, untainted by jagged weeds and thorny bushes. Unlike my own dismal existence. Oh, how I deeply yearned to feel complete, to not struggle with competition, to have a piece of the world that I could call mine.
I turned to my love and said "Sweetheart, what should we do with all this dirt?"
He smiled and responded, "Make something breathtaking and majestic. I give you full control and power over this garden, dear."
"ARE YOU INSANE?!?!? I can't do anything with this! I don't have the slightest clue as to where to even attempt to begin :( ", I whined.
"Hey now! Remember what we talked about at our first meeting?" He asked so innocently.
--Suddenly, I had flashbacks to He and I's first encounter.
The fire we ignited had burned brighter and hotter than any forest campfire in existence.
I felt that He had totally stripped off of me the insecurities that had crippled me for so long.
It was almost as if an old shell of myself had burned along with the orange tinted coals, and a new shell had come about with the heather gray lined ashes.
After that, I had vowed to trust Him in all that He did, all He had said, and to embrace change in any way/shape/form.--
I had come to, racked with guilt for breaking my promise to Him. I ran until my knees eventually crumpled underneath me, profusely apologizing for doubting His honorable request. But instead of shunning me , He looked upon me with discerning eyes, still entrusting me to complete this task so the outcome matched my capricious spirit. I allowed my heart to recommit to Us , started to roll up my sleeves, grabbed a shovel and dug as deep as I possibly could. I worked day and night, often foregoing outsiders and societal pleasures, until it was finally completed. It was sprouting with flowers that were out of this world, their vivid colors creating a saturated bevy of rainbow and brightness. Green stems of varying lengths had added texture to the dirt patch of former sulkenness.
I wiped off the sweat on my brows, tired but pleased with the results and grateful that He allowed the inner queen in me to shine with full reign. It truly is amazing to see how one person can come in and turn who you weren't sure you were into who you were meant to be.
I turned to my love and said "Sweetheart, what should we do with all this dirt?"
He smiled and responded, "Make something breathtaking and majestic. I give you full control and power over this garden, dear."
"ARE YOU INSANE?!?!? I can't do anything with this! I don't have the slightest clue as to where to even attempt to begin :( ", I whined.
"Hey now! Remember what we talked about at our first meeting?" He asked so innocently.
--Suddenly, I had flashbacks to He and I's first encounter.
The fire we ignited had burned brighter and hotter than any forest campfire in existence.
I felt that He had totally stripped off of me the insecurities that had crippled me for so long.
It was almost as if an old shell of myself had burned along with the orange tinted coals, and a new shell had come about with the heather gray lined ashes.
After that, I had vowed to trust Him in all that He did, all He had said, and to embrace change in any way/shape/form.--
I had come to, racked with guilt for breaking my promise to Him. I ran until my knees eventually crumpled underneath me, profusely apologizing for doubting His honorable request. But instead of shunning me , He looked upon me with discerning eyes, still entrusting me to complete this task so the outcome matched my capricious spirit. I allowed my heart to recommit to Us , started to roll up my sleeves, grabbed a shovel and dug as deep as I possibly could. I worked day and night, often foregoing outsiders and societal pleasures, until it was finally completed. It was sprouting with flowers that were out of this world, their vivid colors creating a saturated bevy of rainbow and brightness. Green stems of varying lengths had added texture to the dirt patch of former sulkenness.
I wiped off the sweat on my brows, tired but pleased with the results and grateful that He allowed the inner queen in me to shine with full reign. It truly is amazing to see how one person can come in and turn who you weren't sure you were into who you were meant to be.
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