#TheSW30: Day 18
Hello, all!! Hope that things are going fantastic in y'alls lives. So, I know that I've pretty much abandoned this challenge, but I'm determined to finish it out. Even if I have to do multiple posts a day......I'm gonna finish it. So, without any further delay, here's day 18:
*If you could have a conversation with yourself in high school, what would you say?
[I chose to do it in letter or note form, since that's what I did in high school].
Dear Jaz,
Heyyyyyyyyyyyyy girl!!! What you up to????I I'm just sitting here, thinking that in less than two months, I'll be a college graduate for the second time! Crazy, I know. I know that senior year must be driving you crazy too, with all the last minute things with graduation and your friends and your relationship with G <33333. But, I just wanted to take some time to let you know a few things as you get ready to close this chapter of your life.
For starters, Congrats!! You're almost there :) these last four years are finally leading up to that moment that you've been waiting for. To receive that diploma saying: FINALLY! I've finished.
Second, be prepared to spend the next four years by yourself. I don't mean to sound harsh or anything, but let me explain why. You know G., the guy you love so much and so deeply??? Well, let's just say that he doesn't really show that to you. Over time, you guys will talk less and less. You'll turn into the one doing the reaching out, the asking, the searching for a conversation. I'll be honest, it's gonna hurt for a while You'll wonder why did it fall apart, where did things go wrong, why doesn't he ever show that he loves you like he says?? The truth is, you might not ever get that answer. No matter how much you beg or ask.
Third, you'll get to meet some really wonderful people when you head into college. From your sisters in Alpha Sigma Alpha to your camp co-workers to your kids at youth group, you'll be surrounded by so much diversity and love that you can't even begin to comprehend it. Yo'll wonder some days: how can I still feel alone with all of these people around me? Simple: yo'll begin to see that people are fickle. Not all, but there are for sure some that fall into that bowl of cereal head first.
Fourth, you'll know what it feels like to really fail at something. It will feel as if you let an amazing opportunity slip through your fingers and everything you thought you knew and understood is suddenly thrown out of the window and doesn't matter anymore. People are gonna make you feel so small when they bring up your mistakes. You'll become angry at them, but mostly at yourself. You'll question if the work was worth it, if you'll make it through, what are you going to do if you don't make it?
Fifth, you're going to deal with some heart wrenching loss. Losses that you NEVER dreamed of. You'll be shaken to your core so hard, to the point where you'll have nightmares. You will literally flip your lid.
Finally, you'll get to experience some one in a lifetime events. You'll help with an installation of a chapter of your sorority. You'll get to pioneer an after school program for youth to build a community with one another as well as with God. You'll conquer the stage in front of your entire college population with flying colors. You'll discover history in some unexpected places about some unexpected people. You'll try foods from different countries all over the world without even leaving the U.S.
So, as you get ready to embark on your journey towards graduation, I wanted to leave you with this: learn your lessons in the beautiful moments as well as the ugly ones. Never lose yourself in nonsense situations and people. Put yourself in the other person's shoes--your little act of kindness can be the catalyst that set you both towards the blessing that is the rest of your lives.
Sincerely,
Me
*If you could have a conversation with yourself in high school, what would you say?
[I chose to do it in letter or note form, since that's what I did in high school].
Dear Jaz,
Heyyyyyyyyyyyyy girl!!! What you up to????I I'm just sitting here, thinking that in less than two months, I'll be a college graduate for the second time! Crazy, I know. I know that senior year must be driving you crazy too, with all the last minute things with graduation and your friends and your relationship with G <33333. But, I just wanted to take some time to let you know a few things as you get ready to close this chapter of your life.
For starters, Congrats!! You're almost there :) these last four years are finally leading up to that moment that you've been waiting for. To receive that diploma saying: FINALLY! I've finished.
Second, be prepared to spend the next four years by yourself. I don't mean to sound harsh or anything, but let me explain why. You know G., the guy you love so much and so deeply??? Well, let's just say that he doesn't really show that to you. Over time, you guys will talk less and less. You'll turn into the one doing the reaching out, the asking, the searching for a conversation. I'll be honest, it's gonna hurt for a while You'll wonder why did it fall apart, where did things go wrong, why doesn't he ever show that he loves you like he says?? The truth is, you might not ever get that answer. No matter how much you beg or ask.
Third, you'll get to meet some really wonderful people when you head into college. From your sisters in Alpha Sigma Alpha to your camp co-workers to your kids at youth group, you'll be surrounded by so much diversity and love that you can't even begin to comprehend it. Yo'll wonder some days: how can I still feel alone with all of these people around me? Simple: yo'll begin to see that people are fickle. Not all, but there are for sure some that fall into that bowl of cereal head first.
Fourth, you'll know what it feels like to really fail at something. It will feel as if you let an amazing opportunity slip through your fingers and everything you thought you knew and understood is suddenly thrown out of the window and doesn't matter anymore. People are gonna make you feel so small when they bring up your mistakes. You'll become angry at them, but mostly at yourself. You'll question if the work was worth it, if you'll make it through, what are you going to do if you don't make it?
Fifth, you're going to deal with some heart wrenching loss. Losses that you NEVER dreamed of. You'll be shaken to your core so hard, to the point where you'll have nightmares. You will literally flip your lid.
Finally, you'll get to experience some one in a lifetime events. You'll help with an installation of a chapter of your sorority. You'll get to pioneer an after school program for youth to build a community with one another as well as with God. You'll conquer the stage in front of your entire college population with flying colors. You'll discover history in some unexpected places about some unexpected people. You'll try foods from different countries all over the world without even leaving the U.S.
So, as you get ready to embark on your journey towards graduation, I wanted to leave you with this: learn your lessons in the beautiful moments as well as the ugly ones. Never lose yourself in nonsense situations and people. Put yourself in the other person's shoes--your little act of kindness can be the catalyst that set you both towards the blessing that is the rest of your lives.
Sincerely,
Me
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