Boomerang
...The smell of your skin lingers on me now...
The sudden blast of lavender mixed with Irish spring and a dash of spice, takes me back to our first date 3 years prior. With me all nervous and you cool as a April rain breeze after a thunderstorm. That sly cheshire smirk that could hold my heart hostage. Eyes a saturated cocoa that I could swim in for eternity. I can even remember the softness of the navy button up you had worn when you hugged me for what felt like a lifetime.
.... Whenever you call me, I'll be there. Whenever you want me , I'll be there. Whenever you need me, I'll be there. I'll be around...
2 am. My phone screens lit up, your name burning a digital hole through the glass. 5 seconds , 1 ring. 10 seconds marks 2. By the middle of the 3rd ring, I calmly swipe left and answer you. On the other end, your trembling voice sputters "Come through, babe. I NEED YOU." And though my new man lied beside me in deep slumber, I crept away into my Jeep, revved up the V6 engine, and gunned for my final destination: you.
... Every time I try to leave, something keeps pulling me back, me back, telling me I need you in my life...
As I pulled up wrestling with inevitable regrets, I shoved them away and steadily click clacked my camel thigh highs to your house. One , two , three raps on your jade door. It cracked open and there my prize stood. The increased tension made me hate you, but want you even more.
....I could be aggressive, I can be a savage, I just need your blessing, say that I can have it...
As I begin to speak, a slender finger silenced me and hand in hand , inside I was led. From the front door to against the wall to the master bathroom we would end up, you were now dubbed Hunter and I was Prey.
...From 100 miles an hour back to slow motion, I'm the waves upon your ocean because you're still wanting me and you're still hungering...
It was now or NEVER. Give into my carnal desires and don the title "Homewrecker" on my womanly resumé, or throw you back to the wild, hoping you'll never return. I knew you weren't particularly Mr. Right, but you definitive qualified to be Mr. Right Now.
....One moment, we're meeting. The next, our lips are dancing....
I had forgotten how gentle yet powerful you could kiss, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss it. The slight taste of mint and the warmth of your tongue with mine.....whew, to say the least.
...Purse, shirt, skirt----I'm glad that you took it off. Necklace, white tee, my Nikes---I couldn't wait to take it off...
Soon, my body would become your forest, ready to be explored. Your land to plant your flag deep in the soil and conquer. I was game, set and ready to match your energy. Or so I had thought...
....Your secret love will never be your true love. I can't be no secret, baby. It's breakin' my heart....
In that instant, I released myself from your spell. I was no longer dazed and confused, bemused or bewildered. Clothes, shoes, and my common sense were finally back in place. In that moment, I realized I would never have all of you. Maybe your physical, but not your mental. You'd never be the guy I'd tell my smallest desires or my greatest fears. Never the guy to nurse my broken emotions back to health. Never the guy to openly profess that you not only loved me , but was in love with me.
...I'm on an emotional rollercoaster. Lovin' you ain't nothin' healthy. Lovin' you was never good for me...
And I finally found the strength to get off the ride. I still remember you yelling out your empty promises like clockwork: "When the time is right, we'll be together for real." "I swear you the only woman I ever really loved." But no faster than you uttered those words, up my hand was thrown , signaling that we were to be no more.
The sudden blast of lavender mixed with Irish spring and a dash of spice, takes me back to our first date 3 years prior. With me all nervous and you cool as a April rain breeze after a thunderstorm. That sly cheshire smirk that could hold my heart hostage. Eyes a saturated cocoa that I could swim in for eternity. I can even remember the softness of the navy button up you had worn when you hugged me for what felt like a lifetime.
.... Whenever you call me, I'll be there. Whenever you want me , I'll be there. Whenever you need me, I'll be there. I'll be around...
2 am. My phone screens lit up, your name burning a digital hole through the glass. 5 seconds , 1 ring. 10 seconds marks 2. By the middle of the 3rd ring, I calmly swipe left and answer you. On the other end, your trembling voice sputters "Come through, babe. I NEED YOU." And though my new man lied beside me in deep slumber, I crept away into my Jeep, revved up the V6 engine, and gunned for my final destination: you.
... Every time I try to leave, something keeps pulling me back, me back, telling me I need you in my life...
As I pulled up wrestling with inevitable regrets, I shoved them away and steadily click clacked my camel thigh highs to your house. One , two , three raps on your jade door. It cracked open and there my prize stood. The increased tension made me hate you, but want you even more.
....I could be aggressive, I can be a savage, I just need your blessing, say that I can have it...
As I begin to speak, a slender finger silenced me and hand in hand , inside I was led. From the front door to against the wall to the master bathroom we would end up, you were now dubbed Hunter and I was Prey.
...From 100 miles an hour back to slow motion, I'm the waves upon your ocean because you're still wanting me and you're still hungering...
It was now or NEVER. Give into my carnal desires and don the title "Homewrecker" on my womanly resumé, or throw you back to the wild, hoping you'll never return. I knew you weren't particularly Mr. Right, but you definitive qualified to be Mr. Right Now.
....One moment, we're meeting. The next, our lips are dancing....
I had forgotten how gentle yet powerful you could kiss, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss it. The slight taste of mint and the warmth of your tongue with mine.....whew, to say the least.
...Purse, shirt, skirt----I'm glad that you took it off. Necklace, white tee, my Nikes---I couldn't wait to take it off...
Soon, my body would become your forest, ready to be explored. Your land to plant your flag deep in the soil and conquer. I was game, set and ready to match your energy. Or so I had thought...
....Your secret love will never be your true love. I can't be no secret, baby. It's breakin' my heart....
In that instant, I released myself from your spell. I was no longer dazed and confused, bemused or bewildered. Clothes, shoes, and my common sense were finally back in place. In that moment, I realized I would never have all of you. Maybe your physical, but not your mental. You'd never be the guy I'd tell my smallest desires or my greatest fears. Never the guy to nurse my broken emotions back to health. Never the guy to openly profess that you not only loved me , but was in love with me.
...I'm on an emotional rollercoaster. Lovin' you ain't nothin' healthy. Lovin' you was never good for me...
And I finally found the strength to get off the ride. I still remember you yelling out your empty promises like clockwork: "When the time is right, we'll be together for real." "I swear you the only woman I ever really loved." But no faster than you uttered those words, up my hand was thrown , signaling that we were to be no more.
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