Diary Entry of a Homosexual. (originally written 12-10-2011)

I am not diagnosed with some super contagious disease.

I am not a criminal on trial for murder.

I am not red with horns and a pitchfork.

I am not possessed by a demonic spirit.

I am not rocking a hockey mask, yielding my machete into innocent teenagers at Camp Crystal Lake.

I do not abduct little children and slice them into pieces with my razor blade fingers.

I do not scare others to cause hurt.

I do not choose to pretend only to keep you happy. 

 

You paint me in a bad light simply because of whom I love.

I mean, I can still go to work and pay bills.

I can still own a home.

I still cry at Lifetime movies while eating Ben & Jerry's.

I still desire to have my own family someday.

I still want to get married to my one true love.

I still have parents & siblings & great aunt Edna's and grandpa Joe's. 

I still have two eyes, two ears, ten fingers & toes, arms , legs and hair on the tippy top of my head.

 

So you see, I'm not much different than all of you.

But why do you seem to not think so?

Why do you try to condemn me solely based on who I am as a person?

Simply because I love another man?

Or another woman?

 

Is it fair if YOU get punished because your hair's curly or straight?

or how about if you have brown eyes?

or if you're Pacific Islander or Latin or Black?

or if you're 5'2" instead of 6'0?

 

Notice anything in my list yet?

Yes, those were all things that you CANNOT change.

You are simply born with it.

 

So, why try to act all "holier than thou" becasue I like the same gender as myself?

I find my partner beautiful in every aspect of their being, just like you would for your partner.

Look up love in the dictionary. Does Webster define it as a emotion felt ONLY between man and woman?

Absolutely not. Love is defined as "strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties".

you see that? PERSONAL. not HETEROSEXUAL, HOMOSEXUAL, BISEXUAL and what have you.

My being gay is not the choice I made; my "being true to myself", however, is.

 

And I would much rather have one person embrace me with their open heart than have to hide in shame to be accepted by all of society.