#TheSW30 : Day 5.

The biggest misconception you think people have about single life.

• Out of ALL the different perceptions that people have about single life, the one I tend to get the most is that people think you'll automatically travel down one of two paths: be sad and depressed constantly or use your singleness as a free pass to obtain your hoe license (meaning the type of person who will sleep with any and EVERY body that has legs, breath and a functional male or lady part--whatever your preference may be). Regardless, that seems to be all people can draw from being single. What kind of nonsense is that?!?! In my years of being single, I've had some periods where I felt like complete crap and was upset that I didn't have my own significant other. I won't lie, I'm human like everyone else. But, did I stay in that sunken mood all the time? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Nor did I drop my drawers and shared my goodies with any man that said a mere 'hello" or gave a quick glance my way. About almost two months ago, I gathered up the strength to finally quit fighting life as a single and slowly but surely began embracing it. Besides with all of the unexpected events life's been throwing at me (mostly the not so fantastic unexpected events), being single was truthfully the last thing on my mind. I got a huge wake up call from God this week in particular about priorities and what I give my  true value to. And let's just say, it was not Him by a long shot. I decided as tears streamed down my face to grow closer to God for real, for real. I spent all my time and energy worrying and fretting over things and temporary people that I forgot about the permanent force that sustained me through every high and every low. I turned my back on the one who let his child hang on a heavy wooden cross, bleeding and bruised for all those that loved and hated him. God gave up his someone special so that people like me could realize how special we truly are .How dare I not even think about putting him above everyone else? But you know something? Despite how many times I "cheat" on Him with the world, He still takes me back and forgives It's time I let him in my world fully.  If it means waking up in the middle of the night or earlier in the morning to get my time with Him in, so be it. If I have to stop talking to some people or just cut some things loose, so be it. All this time , I swore on everything I loved that I was beyond ready to be someone's match, when all along, I was so far away from that island. So until my love comes and knocks on my door, I'll be spending my time cleaning house, so to speak, from the inside out. I have to first show all my love to God before I get one of his sons to show it to.