#TheSW30: Day 4---New & Improved

Question: Your biggest fear as a single person.

Hmmmmm.....my biggest fear as a single person. I have a few, but I would have to say my number one would be realizing over time that I just settled. Yes, like last year's post, I am also afraid of not finding Mr. Right for Me at all, but settling just scares me a tad bit more. Why?? Because I've done it before. One relationship I was in was simply because I was just tired of being alone and getting no attention from men. And he was fairly nice , so what could possibly go wrong??? Oh, how I was bound to find out. For starters, he annoyed me virtually ALL the time. I'd cringe when he called me or tried to be affectionate in public. Over time, I began to despise him, which is very out of character for me, considering how nice I usually am. Hell, I used to even hide out from him, just so I wouldn't run the risk of him seeing me. As you probably guessed, I was relieved when things ended, but I ultimately learned that I never wanted a relationship like that ever again. It was stress upon stress upon more stress. I wasn't having any fun in this, and I can imagine he really wasn't either. After a couple more failed relationships and over three years of singledom that I'm still not totally on board with---I'm human, what can I say?---one thing I do desire more and more is to be with a person that I actually want in every way possible. Mentally, physically, emotionally,the whole nine. However, due to the selection of guys I seem to attract (addressed in day one's post here) I'm nervous now more than ever that it won't come true for me.